why is it so??

nobody understands me and nobody will,
i don't know what to do, i want myself be killed;
i wanted to tell everything but i could never,
i know i can't be forgiven and u won't forever;
i was never indulged in wrong things,
but the situations made it appear so,
i want you to hug me,
rather than asking me to go;
i am felling damn helpless at this moment,
i never wanted to be so but cant tell where mah senses went;
all the things which i thought are important,
are now appearing worthless,
i don't know why i was attracted to them,
they were just a piece of shit and nothing else;
there is nothing like friend or true friend,
as they never help us in sorrow,
its just that they are some people,
who like you because of the things you follow;
i don't know wat to do,
bt i m burning inside;
please get me a hand og help,
before i commit suicide....
i know this is not the right time,
and i have to let it go,
but please sum1 tell me,
"why is it so???"